In memorial of my beloved late grandpa

On the morning of 9th November 2012, I received a shocking during my orientation that my ah-gong had passed away on 6:30am. Initially i was nearly breakdown with this news, and tears dropped uncontrollable. With the permission from management side, i managed to fly back immediately to attend the funeral, the last thing i can do for him to accompany him till the end of his journey.

Ah-gong, please forgive me. I'm so sorry for my late arrival to see you for the last time. I thought that we still have the chance in future to meet and talk. I promised to you that i will try my best to come back on this coming CNY to celebrate with you. But things does not always happen as what we planned. You decided to leave and go for a better choice of life. Maybe it's time for you to meet with ah-mah and your friends in the another world. I should let you go in peace now.

Ah-gong, maybe you that I am blaming myself for the late arrival, so you came in my dream and let me know how relieve you are right now. You seems very peaceful, smile happily, having cup of chinese tea with your friends under the tree, and enjoy nice natural scenery in that new world. I know that you're really in peace and accept the leaving now.

To My late grandpa, 

may you rest in peace. I will remember you forever. 

Hope you will have a better life there.

亲爱的阿公，我回来了。

请原谅我迟来看你最后一面，愿你在另一个世界与阿嫲和亲友们相会，过着一样快乐的日子

阿公. 一路好走，安息吧 ！

(Taken at August 2012 at his house, ah-gong concentrate in watching TV)

the true world ....

now i starts to belief that there're lots of selfish people in this world ....
feels regret for being a good person since beginning.
shall i make myself become a cold blooded to protect myself from heart broken again ?

tired ....

seriously i'm so sick of this kind of life ....
keep rushing, rushing and rushing with the cyclic routine and hectic life, just like never ending 1...
should i say this is a process of growing and learning ?

sometimes i starts to wonder whether i'm in the correct place ...
i hate reading and study ... and i end up in this situation, which i MUST actively study to learn new thing
yes, it's good to improve the knowledge, but i wish the pace would be slower down a little bit ...
give me some times to breathe and go on after that ... don't force me with the hell style way
i'm afraid that sooner or later i might get more serious mentally ill ...

actually, i really wish the pace would be slower abit so that i have enough time appreciate and enjoy the process ...
not like what is going on now, i read n do it for the sake of numbers ... there's no point if i continue this ... arghh !
maybe, this is the so-called Educational System In Malaysia' ....

hospital politic

well . this few days i had seen few incidences that related to hospital politic
we described it as a complicated situation in workforce
really never thought of it that there're also such thing called politic inside hosp, and seems more worse than office politic
cal say :"大人的世界真复杂" but it's true, complicated...
hw say:"没有眼看", correct as well ...
But soon, we all will enter into this kind of world... and may experienced the similar conflict as well ...
argghhh .... really hate to see this
conclusion: whenever there's people, there will be politic inside ... no matter how hard u try, there's no way to run away from it

we're sick of IMU's life @_@

today, 'chocolate' tells me that he don't feels that he's enjoying with his uni life as what his uncles told him ... he always hear ppl saying that life in uni is very fun, but he seems never experience such things called excitement and fun in the 3 years of his uni life.

actually i'm fully support with his statement. There's no such things called uni life in IMU. It's too result oriented. study, exam, posting, exam .... The cycle keeps repeating until make ppl in class starts to feel numb and sick of this kind of lifestyle now....
Really sick of it
@_@

an interesting weekend before posting ...

Saturday is a good day to have fun, especially after having 2 stressful papers on last 2 days. However, there's still 2 exams coming on next week, so i planned to fully concentrate on preparation.
When i was about start work on it after having my breakfast on 1300, HMean asked me to join her n my bro go The Gardens eating good meals and movie. Her action called up the 'movie bugs' inside myself. Hence i accept the date and meet up at 1700, can get free ride from my bro~ XD

Surprisingly, there's no jam on the way to destination, so reach quite early. We bought Premiere class tickets for Inception on 2130. Planned to go eat big meal in Tony Roman's .... the person told us that the seats are all booked until 2000 for BUKA PUASA! walau !!! @_@
Plan to change to other places. Unfortunately, other places also all booked for the same purpose.
At last we decided for that Taiwanese Cuisine. And we also have to wait for around 15 minutes even that time was just only 1800 .... But the foods still taste nice, all satisfied with full stomach. After dinner went for a quite shopping. Can see that HM is really pro in the facial products from the way she help bro to choose the eye cream, sunblock etc... salute to her !

Finally, it's time for Inception !!! It's an interesting movie. Lots of climax scenes that makes me keep thinking and analyze the story line....
In fact, i personally feel that the main actor seems of having the similar symptom and behaviors for schizophrenia from what i studied before, such as delusion, prominent hallucination, misconstruing, grandiosity, being controlled, derealization, illogical thinking etc....
The fans of Inception gonna to kill me when they see this !

I'm quite satisfy with today's event, as it's all free for me ~ Bro treat me everything!!! Happy ~ XD
After having fun for the day, it's time to settle down my mood and start to FOCUS in study again .....

auch !!!

just now i was in rush, so i run into my car to move it as i blocked ppl's way out from parking lot.
unfortunately, i hit my buttock accidentally towards the door.
AUCHHH !!!! it's painful
The effect of pain still last until now after few hours gone ....
how?? what should i do?
no massage as it's pain when touched -_-lll
cold compress? no ice available in house +_+
left Arnica comp. gel. hopefully it will works asap

time flies fast ....

just realize that i had been here study + work for 3 years. The pathway that i had gone through contains of all the happiness, excitements, sweats and tears...

cool ! i never expects that i can still survive until today, must work it out til the end of the course.
GO GO GO !!!