tired ....

seriously i'm so sick of this kind of life ....
keep rushing, rushing and rushing with the cyclic routine and hectic life, just like never ending 1...
should i say this is a process of growing and learning ?

sometimes i starts to wonder whether i'm in the correct place ...
i hate reading and study ... and i end up in this situation, which i MUST actively study to learn new thing
yes, it's good to improve the knowledge, but i wish the pace would be slower down a little bit ...
give me some times to breathe and go on after that ... don't force me with the hell style way
i'm afraid that sooner or later i might get more serious mentally ill ...

actually, i really wish the pace would be slower abit so that i have enough time appreciate and enjoy the process ...
not like what is going on now, i read n do it for the sake of numbers ... there's no point if i continue this ... arghh !
maybe, this is the so-called Educational System In Malaysia' ....

hospital politic

well . this few days i had seen few incidences that related to hospital politic
we described it as a complicated situation in workforce
really never thought of it that there're also such thing called politic inside hosp, and seems more worse than office politic
cal say :"大人的世界真复杂" but it's true, complicated...
hw say:"没有眼看", correct as well ...
But soon, we all will enter into this kind of world... and may experienced the similar conflict as well ...
argghhh .... really hate to see this
conclusion: whenever there's people, there will be politic inside ... no matter how hard u try, there's no way to run away from it

we're sick of IMU's life @_@

today, 'chocolate' tells me that he don't feels that he's enjoying with his uni life as what his uncles told him ... he always hear ppl saying that life in uni is very fun, but he seems never experience such things called excitement and fun in the 3 years of his uni life.

actually i'm fully support with his statement. There's no such things called uni life in IMU. It's too result oriented. study, exam, posting, exam .... The cycle keeps repeating until make ppl in class starts to feel numb and sick of this kind of lifestyle now....
Really sick of it
@_@

an interesting weekend before posting ...

Saturday is a good day to have fun, especially after having 2 stressful papers on last 2 days. However, there's still 2 exams coming on next week, so i planned to fully concentrate on preparation.
When i was about start work on it after having my breakfast on 1300, HMean asked me to join her n my bro go The Gardens eating good meals and movie. Her action called up the 'movie bugs' inside myself. Hence i accept the date and meet up at 1700, can get free ride from my bro~ XD

Surprisingly, there's no jam on the way to destination, so reach quite early. We bought Premiere class tickets for Inception on 2130. Planned to go eat big meal in Tony Roman's .... the person told us that the seats are all booked until 2000 for BUKA PUASA! walau !!! @_@
Plan to change to other places. Unfortunately, other places also all booked for the same purpose.
At last we decided for that Taiwanese Cuisine. And we also have to wait for around 15 minutes even that time was just only 1800 .... But the foods still taste nice, all satisfied with full stomach. After dinner went for a quite shopping. Can see that HM is really pro in the facial products from the way she help bro to choose the eye cream, sunblock etc... salute to her !

Finally, it's time for Inception !!! It's an interesting movie. Lots of climax scenes that makes me keep thinking and analyze the story line....
In fact, i personally feel that the main actor seems of having the similar symptom and behaviors for schizophrenia from what i studied before, such as delusion, prominent hallucination, misconstruing, grandiosity, being controlled, derealization, illogical thinking etc....
The fans of Inception gonna to kill me when they see this !

I'm quite satisfy with today's event, as it's all free for me ~ Bro treat me everything!!! Happy ~ XD
After having fun for the day, it's time to settle down my mood and start to FOCUS in study again .....

auch !!!

just now i was in rush, so i run into my car to move it as i blocked ppl's way out from parking lot.
unfortunately, i hit my buttock accidentally towards the door.
AUCHHH !!!! it's painful
The effect of pain still last until now after few hours gone ....
how?? what should i do?
no massage as it's pain when touched -_-lll
cold compress? no ice available in house +_+
left Arnica comp. gel. hopefully it will works asap

time flies fast ....

just realize that i had been here study + work for 3 years. The pathway that i had gone through contains of all the happiness, excitements, sweats and tears...

cool ! i never expects that i can still survive until today, must work it out til the end of the course.
GO GO GO !!!

曾经有人告诉我，这个行为叫 "逃避现实"

once upon a time, there's a monkey told me a funny theory of "attempt to avoid fron reality stress - 企图逃避现实中的压力" by doing something that you'll not do it during normal time, eg: house cleaning. rearrange the location of all furnitures/items in house.
i guess i'm having this symptom now. suppose i should sit and study for the midterm, yet i go to clean my own room as daily routine, PLUS clean the whole house + kitchen and wash all bathrooms. That monkey say this is a way of divertion that cause ppl in attempt to avoid facing the reality when they're busy with doing those unrelated things.
Funny theory but i think it's true.

PS: i just realized that all my housemates NEVER do any cleaning on common area (living hall, kitchen, toilet, laundry area) since my last cleaning on few weeks ago. i really wants to give them all a BIG SALUTE ! girls are more worse than boys. they looks clean from the appearance does not means that they're staying in a clean environment.

无奈

对于事情的发展感到意外 + 无奈 + 无言。能为友情两肩插刀是件很安慰的事，但是要付出代价的。
觉得很失望，当初很努力的把一切联络，事项工作与金钱办得妥当，还以为一切都出奇的顺利进行。哪知，竟然会在最后跑出了问题。原先打算不管不理的，可就是那良心作怪，要当好人，现在搞到自己没得住了。这下可好了！
以十万火速的速度联络了几位朋友与当年的兄弟收留，说会尽量帮忙，但也要得到批准才成事。都不知道结果会如何啊。真的不想再给别人麻烦。
天啊！可否让我安定的渡过这几个学期？不要让我每次都为了同样的住宿问题搞得头大啊。

@_@

going to get crazy soon ... it's hell, not normal life...
i hate this feeling, i really cannot stand it anymore ...
having difficulty in sleeping now... d panda's eye is getting worse ald... yet don't have the gut to buy med or drinks to help in sleep
ish !!! suddenly bcm vy pessimist, what the hell is going on?!
WHY??????
only i know what is happening on myself ...
nobody believe in me when i telling the truth, they think i was joking or fooling ...
nobody i can talk to as they don't understand what i am talking about... is nobody ...
argghhh !!! i'm now really tired, helpless, speechless towards everything ...
i'm lost, really lost now...
please believe in me , pls ....

fireflies ~~~